Well, I’ve finished all my other homework for the week so this seems like a good time to begin my blog.
This will be a place where I can post my updates and grown in my relationship with God. But, since this is the start, there has not been any growth so far.
This is the start.
WHERE I AM:
I don’t know what to say except that I am lazy in seeking a relationship with God. I know a Sunday School amount about Him and am learning a lot this year in school, but I don’t have a great relationship. This makes me feel guilty, which I know is bad because it’s a self-centered emotion. That makes me feel more guilty. It’s just a never ending cycle of worry and guilt. This needs to stop.
When looking through some of the highlighted verses in my Bible I found this one.
Romans 12:11– Do not lack diligence, be fervent in spirit; serve the Lord.
So, I know I need to change my habits. My whole attitude, my spirit needs to change.
WHERE I’M GOING:
This week I am going to focus on two things, both centered on making more of an effort on my half of the relationship (with God).
1. I am going to pray more. Not just nightly as I’m falling asleep, but before meals, in the car, when I have extra time before classes. Simply short little prayers. Some praise, some requests. I just need to speak to him more. I tend to just live my life in a “Laura” bubble.
2. I am going to make a point of spending some quiet time in the Bible. Not reading for class, but with a point of getting to know my Father better.
I’m really excited about this blog! But I’m also kind of nervous. If I fail then it is on the internet for everyone to see. That scares me.
Also, I’ll be putting some pretty personal stuff on here. I don’t want to be stupid and put every innermost thought, but it is still going to get pretty gritty here. That scares me too.
So… if you could calm my fears that’d be awesome. And it would be super cool if you gave me strength and endurance to continue to get to know you. I really want my excitement to be for you in general, not just for the thought of getting to know you.
Finally, give me a sense of peace over the fact that I’m not a writer. Help the words to flow out of me in a way that is clear to any readers, and pleasing to you.
I love you, Lord. Thank you for being such a forgiving and generous God!
Your daughter, Laura